i started killing myself at 11 years old
one day i woke up sitting down, with a thousand thoughts running in my mind,
hearing a never ending ring it goes on and on,
like a suspended panic attack that's edging itself from coming
that's when i first wake up
because i'm suddenly aware that i hated where i was
who I am
and everything else
so i changed myself
over and over again
i'd kill whoever i saw in the mirror
the moment i started disliking her
i’d kill whoever it was in my head
that heard words that were never said
and for the words i did say in return
Written by Vensullie