What I’m Trying to Say

i pass out in the hair salon when the stylist asks about my future / i fall apart on the sidewalk when i’m telling my mom about my past / what i’m trying to say is that there’s nothing holding me together / what i'm trying to say is that sometimes i feel so distant from myself / if i looked in a mirror i don’t know who i’d see / what i'm trying to say is that i feel so guilty about who i am and who i have been / if i looked in a mirror it’d shatter / what i’m trying to say is / you could take me apart with one wrong word

Maggie Lane is a queer Californian writer currently based in France. Her work centers on queer relationships with themes of longing, homesickness, language, and belonging. You can check out her poetry on her instagram.

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/messy.maggielane/