I started filming WARREN PEACE in 2019 when I hurt my knee filming for one of the Skatejuice videos, and I started filming 2nd angles and forced myself to learn Adobe premiere. I had always experienced some mental health issues since I was a teenager, and they began to surface more and more during this time because I didn’t have skating to help clear my mind. I would use skateboarding and weed to constantly run away from family issues I was experiencing at home, and I felt like there was a constant war in my head, always questioning my worth and wondering if I mattered to anyone. I felt alone in the world so often and I was simply depressed. I was always moving around and trying to find balance and peace in my head, but it was always so unstable, and I struggled a lot with suicidal ideations. There were days where I didn’t wanna wake up anymore and felt as if death would be my peace and my release from constantly hating myself.
I didn’t think I’d ever release WARREN PEACE.
I thought I’d be dead before I released it. I cried hundreds of times while making this, and I put my entire soul into it and chose music that made me feel alive when I would spiral into negativity. I watched and filmed my friends fail hundreds of times, get back up, and try and try again. Yet I also watched them succeed and it was a beautiful thing that made me appreciate life. But I was still so caught up in my negative way of living and hating myself. I thought my mind was too far gone into depression to ever feel “normal.” I didn’t wanna accept any help since I thought I always had to struggle against something in order to keep pushing towards goals or creating art, and I was drawing a lot of dark energy to keep a flame inside me lit, but it wasn’t sustainable. Once I hit a rock bottom, I no longer had a choice but to get help and get sober and work through things and journal my thoughts and begin to make peace with the negative. I hope someone out there finds this and realizes their potential and understand that they aren’t alone. People love you and you should love yourself too.
Featuring:
Brennan Scott
Chris Weissmann
Jakey Sparkle
John Manley
Gabe Gasanov
Taran Mckay
London Davis
Caleb Smith
Skyler King
Tony Sanchez
Ace Pelka
Hugo Lagunas
Christopher Hiett
Dyno Hunter
Spencer Semien
Isaac Santana
John Herrera
Maury Nieblas
Javan Henry
Corey Smith
Shuriken Shannon
Words by: Hugo Lagunas
Filmed and edited: Hugo Lagunas
Additional Filming: Brent Hyden, Taran Mckay, Grant Thomas, Nolan Lively, John Herrera