When I First Met the Person I Thought Was the One

when i first met the person who i thought was the one, i noticed signs in everything. i noticed how the lady bugs filled my room, the way lost things made their way back to me, and every time the clock hit 11:11. i didn’t think of it as a coincidence; i thought of it as the universe telling me this is the one. i didn’t consider it was the season when lady bugs hatched or i was manic and i cleaned my room and found things or even that i am on my phone every waking minute. no, that can’t be the reason those things happened because we were perfect for each other and we were in love and we were the ones. that’s what we tell ourselves though. i didn’t notice those telling omens when things went sour but they still were happening. i am only built to only want to see the good because i want good for myself. i want to know that this isn’t all just meaningless. i want to know that someone is meant for me.

Alyssa Runkle is a US-based queer writer.

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